Start my journal

Alice is growing. The day before yesterday was Alice's first Mid-Autumn Day. We went to a friend's house. She has two sons, one is three and half years old, the other one is almost five months old. She reminded me that I should write journals for my baby girl. She mentioned that she was wrote journals for her first son, so right now she could compare her first sons' signs with her second one's. That's a good way for taking care of the second baby, and also she thought she could remind him some funny things when he grows up. Yes, I agree with her. Therefore, I decided to write journals every day as well. I would like to remind Alice her childhood through my journal.

Feel lonely

I wish my parents were here with me.I miss them very much, especially these days. My health is not as good as before. This makes me pretty sad and hopeless. In addition, I pay more time on taking care of Alice, so I feel lonely after Alice's birth. It's not postpartum depression，it just comes when Alice cries. Maybe all new moms will have this kind of feeling. In spite of that, I am still happy when she smiles to me. I always console myself with the thought that she will grow healthily and happily under my protection. And then I will never regret for having her, but I still feel like I need other people's care too.I was planing to go back China for a few months, but I postponed it. Due to the awful disease,hand-feet-mouth disease, I couldn't keep my plan. I don't want my baby have any disease. I would rather keep her in a safe place. How can I avoid suffering from this lonely feeling? ???:-(

The hardest time

I couldn't believe that I could go through the hardest time in my life. After 12 hours, my cute daughter was born on June 12th. I couldn't feel anything except exhausted at that time. Three days later, I discharged from the hospital. The first day that I got home, I didn't want to feed my baby because I was too weak. I wished that my parents were here. I was aware that there wouldn't be anyone to help us. We were on our own. I knew there wasn't only me but also Hongchun felt exhausted during that time. He had to go to a class, take care of Alice and me, cook, wash dishes, do laundry, do a lot of homework ,etc. I only could sleep less than an hour every three hours, but Hongchun could only sleep two to four hours every day. Both of us were struggling to make ends meet.

Fortunately, Alice didn't cry a lot in the first three weeks. After three weeks, Alice started to eat more and more, and she also started to cry at night when she was hungry or wanted someone to company. Therefore, we changed our sleep schedule. During the night time, we needed to keep being awake. Whenever she slept at daytime, we slept with her. That was a really strange time for us. We could not always follow her sleeping time, we still had a lot things to do during her sleeping time. We needed to clean our apartment, do laundry, cook, wash dishes, and so on. Because of too much work, we could not rest well. We were dizzy almost everyday. The only happy thing for us was watching her growing. We were so pleased that Alice looks plump and healthy. This is also the only reason for us to go through this hardest time. This hardest time was ended on August 27th by Alice herself. That day was the first day that Hongchun went back to work. Suddenly, she kept being awake a whole day, and then she started to sleep at night. Finally, we felt that we were liberated.

Now she can manage her time much better than before. Therefore, we can have much more spare time for ourselves. We can meet friends, go window shopping, and chat on line.

Randomly update

Today I went out and had a walk alone. I walked to TJ max to buy hair clipper set. Oh my god! I thought it should be a little bit cool, so I decided to walk there. However, just the opposite, it's not cool, it's so hot. I was sweating while walking to TJ max. When I got back home, My T-shirt was wet. Now I am aware of something. No wonder people would never like to go out door in summer. He he, anyway, it was a good experience. Next time, I will never go out side without knowing the weather.

It seems that fall is here, although it's still hot around noon. I really enjoy the weather in the morning and in the evening. It is cool.

I guess that the winter is coming soon in Grand Forks. I had the experience of living in a cold area, so I'm pretty sure about wishing winter comes a little slower. :-) However, I somewhat can't wait to see what's the weather like here in winter. Do I need to count the date again in winter? I mean I always count the date to see how many days left to see spring.(I know I'm so silly, am I? Winter can not be end by my wishing. It will end at the right time. ) I am not sure. Let's just wait and see what will go on in winter.

Be safe.

Hurricane Ike was downgraded to a tropical storm before it hit Brazos county. College Station is safe now. As Aaron said that we just got a bunch of rain and a bit of wind during Ike destroying Galveston.(Thank you for your word!) I am really really glad that we are not living on the coast; in the meantime, i feel so sorry for those people who lost their homes. Natural disaster is not easy to avoid, but when you have a chance to evacuate from the dangerous location, you can avoid the disaster. Actually, the government did a good job to help people avoid the Hurricane Ike. However, many people didn't believe what the governor said. They just wanted to stay with their houses without a reason. Nevertheless, they called for help at last. I think this is a good lesson for them to learn. For me, be safe is more important than any other reason.

Waiting for Hurricane Ike

It's getting cloudy, but not very windy now. The road outside is quiet. There are only a few cars on the way to somewhere. Maybe they are on the way home from work; maybe they are from South Texas... It seems most of people are staying at home, waiting for the upcoming hurricane Ike. According to the forecast, it won't be here until Saturday. Hopefully, it won't very strong when it comes here.